Got this picture online - credits to the owner. This is the exact state that I want my mind to be in right now. We all have our share of ups and downs. Previously I have friends and family who are very close that I can talk to lighten up the burden but now, I can't remember the last time I had a sensible talk with somebody. Not that I have no friends, only that it's harder now to be real and tell them what exactly is going on. You might want to ask what about your husband? Honestly, he's the other thing causing my suffering right now so yeah, he's not an option. I hope I'll get through this. It's gonna take it's toll on Zeddy and I don't want that. I'm going crazy, almost. Like I'm sick and can't even sleep. And here I am awake at 4am trying to make up something to do. Opened my work laptop but my token is not working so can't do anything. will probably shower and go to office early but no use as no one will be there. I am not really sure what I want. I just want peace. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
Bumped into this post today and realized I'm just overreacting that time and after a good night sleep, rest and some loving and forgiving - I became ok. It is just us controlling our emotions and how it affects our being.
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